Thanksgiving at our house was good and everyone had a nice time. We will put some pics up soon. But, that's not what I want to write about today.
We are tired. I was so looking forward to a 4-day weekend, especially after working in a hospital for the past 5 years where I did not have the day after Thanksgiving off. But, this past weekend, was a LONG one and I found myself looking forward to going back to work. And then feeling guilty about that. I love the babies, obviously, but I am so exhausted and it is so hard to have very little time for myself. Penny and I talked it over and she is feeling the same way. However, I "get" to get away to work, so we are feeling it in a different way. Not more or less, just different, and I will let her make a post about how she is feeling if she wants to.
It is fall and we have a craft room. And I want to be crafty. But, there is no time for craftiness and I am feeling crappy about that. I was so psyched to move into this big house and have space for laying out scrapbook pages to work on and maybe even learning some new crafty things. But it's not happening! When we are home with the babies, it is a neverending cycle of feeding, playing, changing, trying to get them to sleep, repeat, repeat, repeat. I know, I know. What did I expect? We have twins and they are busy little 6 month olds. But even when there are a few moments, I find that I am hesitant to start anything because there is never a significant enough chunk of time to start anything. And so I am watching too much TV or spending too much time on the internet and I am hating it. Well, hating it might be too strong. I strongly regret the time I lose to TV and the internet.
Penny and I are trying to do Weight*Watchers and we have done relatively well so far by making better food choices. We have both lost about 11 pounds. Yay us! But, we are not exercising and that sucks, too. I want to, but again, I cannot find the time. I cannot fathom getting up one second earlier than I have to, as I already feel so sleep deprived. And then when the kids go to bed for the night, we are so tired, that we usually make and eat dinner, and then veg out in front of the TV. I want to use this time efficiently, but I just feel too worn out to use that time to exercise, scrapbook, or anything else.
Does anyone out there have any thoughts, encouragement, or words of wisdom? We started this blog as a way to keep people informed and in the loop about the babies and our move, but I have felt rather "Pollyanna" lately with mostly all hearts and rainbow posts, when, in reality, I am struggling with some things. Do other bloggers struggle with how much to complain and how much to sugar-coat things for people who are reading?
And speaking of struggling, remember when I mentioned Jordan's coughing and wheezing the other day? Well, we took him to the doc's office and they said he has cold induced asthma! *SIGH* So, they sent us home with a nebulizer and meds and now we have to give him breathing treatments every 4 hours when he is awake. As you can imagine, our 6 month old boy does not like sitting still for ten minutes with a mask held over his face, blowing mist his way. Good times, good times.