Friday, August 28, 2009

Am I living the dream?

Last night I went to see Julie and Julia with my friend, Elissa. She is another twin mom who I met here in VT. Her twin boys are a week younger than Jordan and Taylor. We are a lot alike and we really enjoy spending time together. We were thrilled to have a night out together last night! We loved the movie, but we came away wondering how we could find our own special projects with which to become famous. Ok, maybe not famous, but maybe a bit more fabulous!

Do you ever do that? I love going to the movies, but I often come away feeling crappy about my life. Ok, maybe not crappy, but less than, or like something is lacking, and like I want more. And then sometimes I am inspired to do things, like lose weight, blog more, do more stand-up comedy, be more crafty and fabulous, etc, etc, etc.

Today there was a newsletter from Smith in my email box. (By the way, Julia Child went to Smith and there was not one damn reference to my alma mater in the whole movie. I am sure I am not the only Smithie who was pissed about this!) In the email, I noticed a tagline for the college. I am not sure if this is a new tagline or not. The tagline is: Smith College educates women of promise for lives of distinction.

I like it! It made me smile. Ok, so at one time, Smith College considered me a woman of promise. Shit, since I went there for my BA and again for my MSW, they actually thought that about me twice (Can you visualize me patting myself on the back and congratulating myself?) But, the question is, as I sit here in my office with no windows (did I just admit to blogging at work? That's allowed on your lunch break, right? Right??), am I living a life of distinction?

Is this enough? And if it's not, am I willing to do what it takes to get what I want? Do you ever think like this?

6 comments:

twomomsarebetterthanone said...

yes, yes i do think like this.

but usually i am too tired to follow through on ANYTHING!

when i think of other women i know and how much they do *while* parenting (my grad school adviser comes to mine: 4 kinds in 5 years while working on her PhD and earning tenure), i come to the conclusion that some people have super powers, and i do not!

SO...what would *you* be doing differently?

Nikki said...

OMG! I loved the movie too! and yes I think like you do 'all the time'. I try to push the thoughts to the back of my mind so I can remember to appreciate all that I have. But funny,., that movie left me wanting to adapt Julia's personality: her charisma for life and just enjoying things in the present. Just finding something 'to do' that makes me happy. Bon Appetite!
hugs to you!

Anonymous said...

Okay I am a little biased but I think you are a woman of distinction. I sit with you in meetings and I am often awed by your intuition and ability to see the big picture even in times of stress.I think that being a mother automatically puts you in the category of distinction (All mothers.) and hell look at our kids. They are amazing. I admire you and what you do for our family and how you have helped me grow.
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zeebah said...

Uh, yes, all the time! We sit around & think about all the ways we could be more fabulous or more fulfilled or or or... but with two girls due next month (ack!), we're too busy getting ready for them (& then we'll be too tired) to do anything but live in the moment.

hali and emily said...

yes, and it is usually about living a more creative life. less Ikea, less predictable, more funky, more home-canning of organic produce. working closer to home and my work being more creative. for me, the question is less about a life of distinction (i.e. famous-type) and more about quality of life, closer to the earth and the soul-type things. but it dogs me. and with a new baby, the idea of her living in child care at such a young age, and that being the only way we will be able to make things work, is right up there!

Ms. Chang said...

I am thinking of applying to Smith for my MSW. What was your experience like? Is it worth the money? I would really appreciate your response. Thanks!

-undecided
(ms.chang3@gmail.com)